"A good society cannot be built on miracles" -Jonathan Kozol

I recently read Jonathan Kozol's book Amazing Grace. Kozol writes about the people, specifically children, that he meets in the Bronx in the 1990's. He recounts difficult stories of the pervasive, racist policies that keep families and individuals in the Bronx in a perpetual cycle of poverty and violence. Unfortunately these children's stories could belong to children in many places throughout the world. There are striking similarities between the children of the Bronx and the children I met in the West Bank.

Throughout the time that I lived in Israel/Palestine and since I have returned to the US, I have had misgivings about how to write about the more difficult aspects of life. It is, of course, easy to write the funny stories, the endearing stories and the adventure stories, but it is harder to know how to write about tragedies and injustices. It is tempting to put on a positive spin or to talk about how strong the people are. Indeed, since returning to the USA I have often found myself talking about how difficult life is in Palestine and then feeling the need to talk about how resilient the Palestinian people are. It bothers me. Of course, the people are resilient, but it seems to me that they should not have to be.

Kozol writes eloquently about this dilemma, "[Stories of resilience] have a reassuring quality that is not present in most stories that one hears about the lives of children in the South Bronx. Some preachers speak of situation of this kind as 'little miracles,'... The trouble with miracles, however, is that they don't happen for most children; and a good society cannot be built on miracles or on the likelihood that they will keep occurring. There is also a degree of danger that, in emphasizing these unusual relationships and holding up for praise the very special children who can take advantage of them, without making clear how rare these situations are, we may seem to be condemning those who don't have opportunities like these or, if they do, cannot respond to them" (160). Stories of resilience are important because of the hope they contain, but they are exceptional and thereby simply not the case for the majority of people. I would hate for the children not perceived as "resilient" to be blamed for it.

In writing my blog, I want to keep optimistic and tell stories of resilience, but I also fear that in always putting on a positive spin or showing the strength of the people, I allow my readers to get complacent. Indeed, I worry about letting myself get complacent. Suffering in the world can, and should, make us uncomfortable. Like Kozol, I worry that emphasizing stories of resilience allows us to ignore the ways in which our comfortable lifestyles in the US contribute to and even cause the suffering of others throughout the world.

On the other hand, I know that without a glimmer of hope, it is far too easy to drown in despair. One need only talk with someone suffering "burnout" in the social justice sector to know that you cannot dwell completely on suffering without some hope. In choosing the title of my blog, you may remember that I wanted to focus on hoping "for a great sea-change" and believing that "a further shore is reachable from here" in the midst of the pain and darkness in our world.

Perhaps the best thing we can do is to work hard to make something better. To align our gifts with the world's need. My YAGM family often quotes Frederick Buechner in his book Wishful Thinking, "The place God calls you to is where your deep gladness and the world's deep hunger meet." Do something you are passionate about in a way that meets some of the world's need. I think that might be about the best we can do.

Volunteering Rewards

“I don’t know what your destiny will be, but one thing I do know: the only ones among you who will be really happy are those who have sought and found out how to serve.” - Albert Schweitzer

One aspect of my work is recruiting, coordinating and managing a group of volunteer math tutors who work with our clients. The course is designed to help our students improve their scores on the community college entrance exam and, more importantly, to succeed once they are in college courses. Our students are refugees and other New Americans who are interested in pursuing a career in medical professions. One important part of helping these students score better and succeed in college is improving their math skills. Therefore we need reliable, talented and patient volunteers.

In the past we have had a core group of talented and dependable tutors who enthusiastically tutored each week. Most are back helping us this year, but due to some scheduling conflicts, not all are available this semester, so one of my first tasks this year has been lining up new volunteers. It has turned out to be surprisingly complicated since volunteers need more than just tutoring and math skills, they need patience and a willingness to help individuals whose first language is not English. I interviewed several individuals who did not have the time or interest in this type of tutoring. To be honest, I can relate. Tutoring math is, after all, hard work. Our tutoring is four hours a week, every week and although we provide books and materials, we expect our tutors to plan their own lessons.  I sometimes found myself wondering why anyone was willing to take this task on for free when they could probably get paid, albeit modestly, for this work elsewhere.

 Eventually I found one new volunteer who was quite hesitant at first, but eventually, she really hit her stride. Reliable and gentle, she made her three students feel at ease. I was impressed with her commitment as she even put in extra time working with students after class and preparing worksheets at home. Unfortunately, after two months of volunteering, a work schedule change made it necessary for our new volunteer to resign. On her last day, I was a bit surprised to note that she was genuinely sad to leave. Although she had been nervous at first, she told me, she had come to thoroughly enjoy tutoring. She particularly enjoyed getting to know the three women she worked with and she said she would really miss the challenge. To be honest I was a bit floored. Four hours a week of strictly scheduled, unpaid tutoring is a big commitment of time and mental energy in a busy world. Nonetheless, this professional was sincerely sad to leave. Clearly she was getting something out of this experience even if it was not money.

A few days later, one of the other tutors who has served our population faithfully for years, mentioned in passing how great this work is. He said that tutoring our clients really grows on a person because it is so fulfilling. His comment drove home for me what I had forgotten in the busyness of searching for new tutors: volunteering feels good for the volunteer. Doing something you are a good at, without monetary reward, is meaningful exactly because your reward is emotional rather than material. Now that I coordinate volunteers, I can see clearly how incredibly important good volunteers really are. We simply could not run our program without them, which means that for the volunteers this act of selflessness carries the considerable reward of knowing you have helped your community. I got so wrapped up in the quest for volunteers that I forgot the greatest selling point in my arsenal: volunteering is rewarding. It satisfies a longing for significant work and in such a dismal economy, there is something to be said for having some meaningful pursuits on the agenda.

Ironically, I myself have committed to a year of volunteer service, which is how I ended up in this position coordinating volunteers in the first place. Clearly I value volunteerism, though perhaps I had not intentionally reflected on why I volunteer.  I am grateful for my tutors’ reminder that volunteering has intrinsic value, not only for the organization or people served, but for the volunteer. Schweitzer’s quotation encourages us all to seek out ways to volunteer because he believes that it is service to our fellow human beings that makes us truly happy.

Snapshot of Tonight

One perfect Autumn leaf on my wall in Palestine.

Quite by surprise, I find that it is suddenly mid-October. In Minnesota the leaves are changing colors and I am reminded of how last year my friend Maddie, who is now my friend and my housemate, sent me a perfect, autumnal leaf, straight from Minnesota. She knew that Palestine does not really have Fall and that I must be missing the triumphant colors of the Midwest.  I taped the leaf to my bedroom wall along with precious cards and photos of loved ones back home in the United States.

Get off my chair nasty cat. And yeah, I broke that lamp.

Now another YAGM volunteer lives in our little flat in Ramallah. He works at the school where I worked and has already had adventures (read: terrifying experiences) with the local stray cats which are exceedingly clever and find their way into the aforementioned flat. (I will never forget the day I came home and found big dirty cat prints on everything.) Perhaps it goes without saying that I follow this year's volunteer on Facebook, despite having never met him. Of course, I feel jealous at the experiences he is having and his awesome stories, but I am also so, so, so happy for him and for the other current YAGM volunteers.

Today I finally sent a bunch of my pictures from Palestine to the printer so that I will have hard copies to put up (everywhere!). Although I took a couple thousand pictures, I still find myself wishing I had taken more. Why did I not capture a shot of the rabbit shop (live rabbits) outside my yoga studio? Why did I not take a picture of the garden outside my supervisor's flat? It was so easy to remember to take pictures of the adventures (traveling to Petra in Jordan, standing next to the Dome of the Rock) but so much harder to remember to document the quiet, beautiful moments that truly made up my existence abroad.

Today at work we were discussing creating a short promotional video about our programs. Several of the teachers talked about how often they wish they had a video camera in hand when the students tell stories of their lives; fleeing violence, and literally seeking refuge. Our refugee clients have stories filled with heartbreaking loss and breathtaking resilience. I am particularly fond of the stories of life in the midst of the insanity; babies born in refugee camps to mothers who love them every bit as much as mothers whose babies are born in fancy Midwest hospitals. I am reminded that everyone has beautiful stories of life. Heroic stories. Sad stories. Fantastic and hilarious adventure stories. Stories of the quiet moments filled with joy. Stories of a single red leaf taped to a bedroom wall in a desert that seemed both far from home and home itself.

Tonight, one of my friends updated her blog and I found myself thinking that I should update mine. It is easy to remember to document one's experiences while traveling because you want to update the loved ones far away and because you are doing so many "Facebook-profile-picture-worthy" things. But life is lived now, in the quotidian moments. Those moments deserve some documentation as well.

So here's to the moments that made up my evening: there were no unexpected clients at my after-work volunteer gig so I nearly finished Jonathan Kozol's book Amazing Grace. My heart ached for the children of the Bronx and the children of Palestine, who are really not so different.  Volunteering got done early so I watched the end of tonight's episode of "The Voice" with Maddie. She vacuumed the stairs during commercial breaks. Hit by inspiration (and an entire day's worth of Muse on repeat), Maddie played music while Lexi returned from the gym to make a grilled cheese sandwich and coffee in preparation for her night-shift. I wrote a blog post and I stayed up later than I meant to, but felt good about it because I was struck by the urge to document a slice of my life right now.

Let us not forget to honor the beauty in our daily lives.

Adventures in Reverse Culture Shock

I always thought people were kind of joking when they talked about reverse culture shock. Or that it was just a way of being really pretentious about how you had traveled and now your normal life feels almost as exotic to you as living abroad first felt. However, I have to admit that I now understand to some extent what the phrase is talking about. For me, reverse culture shock has so far come in two forms.

The first form is where I unintentionally bring certain parts of my life from Palestine back here to the USA. For example, I still say "bye bye" whenever I'm saying goodbye to someone. In Palestine my teachers would always say "bye bye" in English instead of goodbye, I have no idea why, but it really stuck and I ended up likewise saying "bye bye". Now, even back in the USA where I know that it sounds somewhat childish, I still find myself saying "bye bye", particularly to my coworkers and to relative strangers.

I also revert back Arabic a great deal, particularly when talking to children or inanimate objects. My gut reaction when something does not go quite right is, "eh! ya Allah, shu hada??" or if someone does something unwise my instant impulse is, "habibi! shway shway!". I also cluck at things when I disapprove of them.

I feel constantly compelled to offer anyone in my house something to drink. I have even been known to offer my own housemates something to drink, and they are not guests. It is safe to assume that if you are in my house I will offer you something to drink. Probably multiple times. It just feels bad to have someone sitting there without a drink of some sort. I am also surprised at how often people say no, they are fine without anything. It is really engrained in me that one always at least accepts a glass of water, but I guess that is not what Americans do and I probably would not be surprised by that if I had not lived in Palestine for a year. I know that my Palestinian mentors must be proud that I have absorbed this aspect of their culture of hospitality.

Another form of my reverse culture shock is being surprised at American things which I must have never noticed before. For example, as it has begun to get cool outside, I am MARVELLING at how warm it still is inside. Seriously! How do we insulate our houses so well?? If I am feeling a bit cold in my room, I just close my window and then it is instantly warm. If it was 50 degrees outside in Palestine, it was likewise 50 degrees inside my house because the architecture was designed around keeping the house cool in summer rather than warm in winter (we had a particularly cold and wet winter in Palestine last year). Insulation designed around keeping a house warm is miraculous. It also means I have severely under-dressed for the weather outside a few times because I forget that it might be colder outside than inside.

I am also consistently surprised at how well American kindergartners speak English. It really is astonishing. It just comes to them naturally, like a first language. The most time I have ever spent with kindergartners was at my school last year so I expect kindergartners to only speak a few phrases of memorized English and mostly Arabic.

I am also surprised at how much energy, in terms of time, money and brainpower we, as Americans, put into buying things. I went into an IKEA for the first time ever when my housemates and I were getting some last minute items for our kitchen and I was so overwhelmed. So. Much. Stuff. Is buying more stuff really what makes America so great? Every weekend we get so many coupons and advertisements encouraging us to buy more stuff. Then all the commercials in English remind me how much I hate advertising because it is just so obsessed with trying to convince me to buy more stuff. Oh, so you think that you are going to convince me to buy your shampoo so that my hair will smell awesome and men will fall in love with me? Please. That is ridiculous and demeaning. Plus I already have shampoo and it works just fine. Of course, Palestine is inundated with advertisements as well, but Palestine lacks the pervasive culture of consumerism that feels so abundant here. There are even advertisements now where individuals are finding ways to destroy their cell phones so that they can buy new cell phones. Destroy your Iphone 4 so you can go out and buy an Iphone 5. It is promoting buying just for the sake of buying and it is bizarre.

My experiences with reverse culture shock so far remind me of Anthropology and how, as a discipline, it seeks to understand a people or a group from the margin. It seems true that when you find some distance from something, you come to see it in a different light. I think one of the greatest benefits of long-term travel is that you learn to put a critical lens back upon your own culture and country. Why do we do things that way? Why do we think that is the best way to live?

All in all my reverse culture shock has led to some hilarious and thought-provoking moments. Thankfully, I have also found some much needed Palestinian respite in Minnesota. More on that in an upcoming post. :-)

Transitions and Gratitude

I apologize for my long absence from the blog-o-sphere. In my defense, it has been a very, very busy month of transitions. About a month ago, on July 21st I packed up my belongings in Jerusalem, went for a run around the Mount of Olives with views of both the West Bank and the Dome of the Rock and got ready to fly back to the United States.

I arrived back home and had only one short week (actually really just five days) to spend some much needed time with my family and friends, unpack and wash all of my clothes and belongings, repack all of my belongings and move into my new house with some dear friends from college and start orientation for an Americorps position at a refugee agency. I have now worked for three weeks at the agency and I am really enjoying the work, and my colleagues.

I have been reflecting a lot about my experiences of the past year in Palestine and I keep coming back to all I have learned about gratitude. In Ramallah, I had the honor of becoming part of Farashe, a nonprofit yoga studio in the heart of the city. Farashe’s vision is to bring the health benefits, the peace and the inner joy of yoga to the Palestinian people under Occupation. It is an amazing place.

Yoga taught me that it is hard to be feel upset and grateful at the same time, so when you are feeling really angry, frustrated or annoyed about something that you cannot change right now, it is effective to instead redirect that energy toward taking stock of the things for which you are grateful. In the yoga studio our instructor started and ended each yoga practice with gratitude to ourselves and to each other. Living in the midst of military occupation can be really frustrating, so I really appreciated spending that mental energy seeking inner peace and strength instead of boiling in anger. Of course, it is good to have some anger in order spur change, but you simply cannot seep in it all the time. I marveled at how powerful it was to dwell on gratitude instead of anger.

Perhaps dwelling on gratitude came more easily to my Palestinian yogi comrades, since Arabic is a language of gratitude. It has been described as something of a formal dance, similar to a waltz. The first person curtsies and the second bows in return. The entire dance becomes a series of formal give and take. So it is with Arabic, one formal phrase of gratitude begets another such phrase in response. There are many, many more ways to say “thank you” in Arabic than there are in English.

In her book Mornings in Jenin, Susan Abulhawa writes, “In the Arab world, gratitude is a language unto itself. ‘May Allah bless the hands that give me this gift’; ‘Beauty is in your eyes that find me pretty’; ‘May God extend your life’; ‘May Allah never deny your prayer’; ‘May the next meal you cook for us be in celebration of your sons’ wedding… of your daughter’s graduation… your mother’s recovery’; and so on, an infinite string of prayerful appreciation. Coming from such a culture, I have always found a mere ‘thank you’ an insufficient expression that makes my voice sound miserly and ungrateful” (169-170). While learning and practicing Arabic, I found the formal exchanges of gratitude to be indescribably beautiful. When someone gives you a cup of tea, in Palestine you would respond with what in English would be, “Bless your hands”. Such eloquent language for the articulation of even minor gratitude makes one think about the importance and power of expressing gratitude.

With these beautiful models of gratitude in mind, I must express my gratitude for the incredible experiences I was fortunate to have this past year in Palestine. I am humbled with gratitude for the teachers and students at the School of Hope from whom I learned so much about education, resilience and hope. I am grateful for my yoga studio, and yoga teachers with whom I found some peace, laughter and friendship in the midst of a military occupation. I am grateful for my choir, Zaridash, for sharing the solace of community and music in the midst of occupation. I am grateful for my awesome Arabic tutor, Mohammad, who patiently taught me how to read, write and speak in Arabic but also taught me about Palestinian culture and the importance of a mid-lesson cup of mint tea. 

I am so grateful for friends in Palestine who made Ramallah my home. I am grateful for the church communities and organizations in Palestine and their work toward building peace. I am grateful for the other YAGM volunteers and for our fantastic leaders who walked with us through the fun and, most importantly, the struggles of living in Palestine. I am grateful for the YAGM program and the ELCA for their incredible support to volunteers living abroad. I am grateful for all that I learned about myself in the midst of the challenges I faced this year. I am also immensely grateful for the fun, the laughter, the play and the joy. I am grateful for the opportunity to travel around Israel and Palestine, to learn a new language, to eat amazing new foods and to have the honor of calling a new city home. 

Please accept my deepest gratitude for you, dear supporters. It is an honor to know that I have had such great individuals cheering me on throughout this adventure. Shukran/Thank you! 

I have decided to keep blogging since it has become a fun exercise in writing and reflection. Therefore make sure to continue to check back and hear about my adventures and reflections in the United States! :-)

Breaking the Silence

I recently had the incredible opportunity to attend a tour of the South Hebron hills led by an organization called Breaking the Silence. The organization is made up of veteran combatants who have served in Israeli Armed Forces during or since the Second Intifada (which means in the last 12 years). The veterans involved are individuals who want to inform Israelis and others about the reality of the Occupation as it is on the ground. They share testimonies of their experiences and give tours of Hebron and the South Hebron Hills to explain the work of soldiers in these areas. 

Our guide served during the Second Intifada as part of a unit that performed night arrests. This means when they had suspects to take to prison, they would go to their homes at night and arrest them. Sometimes they would do as many as ten arrests in a single night. He said that he and his fellow soldiers did their best to be “good soldiers”. The soldiers found it hard to see how upset the Palestinian children were when they saw their father, mother or sibling being arrested. He said that he would try to look the kids in the eye and show that he was a good man.  Eventually, he started carrying candies to give to the children so that they would not be as upset.

Our guide further explained that when they took over Palestinian homes to serve as their home base for weeks or months at a time (a regular part of Israeli Military policy in the West Bank), they would do their best to clean up the house afterward when they gave it back to the Palestinian inhabitants. All in an attempt to be good soldiers.

However, our guide said that he eventually came to the conclusion that he could be the best possible soldier, but that did not change the fact that what he was being asked to do was immoral. The Occupation may be completely legal under Israeli law, but that does not make it moral. To hear a former combatant questioning the morality of the Israeli government policy toward Palestinians was extremely powerful.

One important thing that this tour and the organization in general highlight is that military occupation is obviously bad for the people being occupied, but it also damages the occupiers. These former soldiers will never forget the things they were asked to do, the things they experienced and what they witnessed during their terms of service.

I am deeply impressed by Breaking the Silence and the former soldiers involved. I can only imagine the courage and personal moral conviction it must take to stand up against a system in which you actively participated. I am so honored to have learned from our guide for the day and have renewed hope that change is possible. When people within the system see it as unjust and are courageous enough to work for change, it is a bit easier to believe that a further shore is reachable from here.

The Good Earth

After school got out, I had some vacation time so another volunteer and I decided to spend our vacation helping out at an organic farm in the West Bank called Tent of Nations. To my delight, we arrived just in time for the last four days of apricot season on the farm. 

Apricot season is quite short in Palestine: one or two weeks at most. It is therefore something to be savored while it lasts. At the beginning of the year, one of the first Arabic phases we learned was “bukra fil mishmish” which translates to "tomorrow in the apricot". The phrase has the sense of “when pigs fly”. The apricot season is so short that to say, “it will happen in apricot season” is a akin to "it will happen when pigs fly".

In a later Arabic lesson, the first Arabic tongue twister I ever learned was, “hada mishmish mish min mishmishna”. It means, “this apricot is not from our apricot tree” and the phrase is really fun to say fast! Between these two phrases, I was already feeling an affinity for Palestinian mishmish by the time that mishmish season rolled around this year. I had my first taste of real Palestinian apricots and khelas (that's it), I am in love. The apricots here are so sweet and full of flavor. I do not know what I have been eating in the United States that has paraded itself as an apricot, but it is nothing compared to these delightful little fruity morsels.

Picking a golden, Palestinian apricot

The edge of the Apricot grove

At Tent of Nations, I got to spend some time in the organic apricot grove. The grove is deep in a rocky valley and has approximately forty apricot trees. We rode down from the hilltop farm early in the morning to do our picking while the air was still cool. We were blessed with the absolute most beautiful, blue sky sunshine days. I will never forget the sun shining through the green leaves of the trees as we searched for the elusive last fruits of the apricot season. 

Working close to the sun-warmed earth, the only sounds I heard were the lazy buzz of insects who were equally interested in the mishmish, the noises of herds of goats in the surrounding hills and the satisfying thump of apricots filling buckets. I quite enjoyed the warmth of the sun on my skin, the coolness of the shade under the trees, the rocky ground beneath my feet  and the gentle breeze. I was surrounded by the sweet perfume of ripe apricots. Best of all was the occasional taste of these perfect fruits. I can say with certainty that the best food I have ever eaten is a fresh-off-the-tree, still-warm-from-the-sun, organic Palestinian apricot. 

I have spent the past ten months living in the "Holy Land" but the closest I have come to a mystical experience here was in that sun-filled apricot grove, admiring the miracle of fruit. Fruit trees turn pure sunshine, gentle rain, and nutrients from the soil into delicious, golden food. Amazing. I was filled with such unbelievable gratitude. I found myself thankful for the sunshine, the breeze and the earth. Thankful for the plentiful rain this year that made the apricot harvest so bountiful. Thankful for the combined effect of the quiet solitude of harvesting fruit and the company of my fellow pickers. Thankful for the health of my body to be able to pick and the renewing health of my soul in the sunshine, the warmth and the earthy sweetness. After ten months of city life, filled with honking horns and crowds, I felt utterly renewed in communing with the good earth. 

Miraculous abundance

Daher, the farmer who owns the land, took great joy in harvesting. He pointed out the cave where his Grandfather used to sleep during harvesting season in order to be able to work earlier in the morning and longer into the evening. He checked up on the progress of  his nearby apple orchard and grape vineyard. He had such admiration for his apricot trees. He pulled out a branch with six apricots all in a row next to each other and said, “Look at that! Where’s your camera? We must take a picture!".

I recently finished reading the novel, The Good Earth, by Pearl S. Buck. It is a stunning chronicle of  the life of a farmer in pre-communist China. The farmer delights in his land. He puts the sweat of his brow and all of his trust, through good times and bad, into the earth. He pulls a life and a living from the soil. He admires the miracle of hard work and good land.

One of the buckets I filled on the second day

Between reading Buck’s book and working on the Tent of Nations farm, I now have a better understanding of the joy of working one's land. The wonder of coaxing a livelihood out of the earth. The connection one might feel to a particular plot of soil. I spent only a tiny amount of time in that apricot orchard, but I already feel deeply connected to it. Some part of my soul will ever be rooted in its warmth, light and miraculous plenty. I can only imagine what it must be like to work this land every year and to know that one’s family has trod this same soil and harvested these same trees for generations upon generations.

My fellow harvesters: Daher, Tina, Michelle and Anka

Unfortunately, like all of Palestine today, this farm has suffered. Since 1991, the family that owns the land has been in a legal battle with the Israeli government to keep their family land. The Israeli government has said that if the land is not properly maintained and cultivated it will be confiscated from the family. The government has also claimed that parts of the farm are on Israeli state land. The farm is surrounded by Israeli settlements in the West Bank (which are illegal under international law) and it is easy to guess that these settlements would like to use the farm for their own agriculture. This situation makes the miracle and beauty of the apricot harvest all the more precarious.

I hope and long for a just and peaceful solution to this conflict. This land is so unbelievably beautiful, that it is truly heartbreaking to see it filled with conflict and hate. May we all pray and work for justice and peace in the Holy Land.

 

Sunset over the Tent of Nations

Kindergarten Graduation

A few weeks ago I had the honor of helping with and attending the School of Hope Kindergarten Graduation. The five-year old's have completed their Kindergarten year and will be moving up to First Grade and the main campus of school next year.

Singing, aren't they fancy and hilarious?

Late in the afternoon, the Church Hall filled with excited Kindergartners and families, all eager to see the events unfold. The boys wore little ties or bow-ties while the girls sported fancy little dresses. They looked just like little princes and princesses! It was fun to see the families of my students all dressed up and excited for their little ones.

Me with Kindergartner Nara and her sister

The ceremony began with a not-so-solemn procession of the graduates into their seats beside the stage. You can be sure that they waved at their families. There were poems, songs, dances and skits. I had the honor of helping to narrate the English play, Cinderella. That is right, my students memorized lines from a very simple version of Cinderella I found and performed it on stage with costumes and props. I was so proud of them! It was so clever that they managed to memorize whole lines of English that they certainly could not understand yet. Their parents were definitely impressed.

At the end the students were called up one by one to receive their certificates and shakes hands with the principal. It is likely the most adorable graduation ceremony I have been a part of to date!

Schools Out For the Summer!

It is astonishing to write, but the last day of school has already come and gone several weeks ago. I must admit that there were days this year when I thought the school year would never end. Then, quite suddenly, the last day of school arrived. The students finished their final exams and received their yearbooks. I got a yearbook as well and it is utterly surreal to see my face featured in the teachers/staff section. In previous yearbooks, I have always been among the students, so it seems like quite the paradigm shift. I graduated college a year ago but seeing my face among those of the teachers makes it much more real. 

A visitor, Musa, Principal Michael and Randa

The best part of the yearbook is the large section featuring photos of all the events throughout the school year. It is awesome to look through pictures of events and find my face! It drives home for me the fact that I have spent an entire academic year volunteering in this particular school. I was there for the teacher’s breakfast in the early fall. I was there for the students’ Christmas show and the teacher’s Christmas dinner. I was there when the students from Norway came on exchange and learned about Democracy in Israel/Palestine. I was there for every part of the English Bowl. I was there for the important events this spring such as Graduation and the Dabke concert. Astonishing. 

Sue, Najwa, Me and Pastor Saliba

I understand better now the wealth of community that stems from working at a school. Between teachers, students and staff, a school is like a tiny village. We have shared joys, sorrows, challenges and successes. I am honored to have taken part, if only for one year.

After the students left, the teachers piled into each other’s cars and drove out to a nearby village for a group lunch. We feasted on salads and meats. We laughed about the adventures of the year and looked forward to the summer.

There was a short presentation where I received a small thank you gift from the teachers and staff. I was unspeakably honored. The lunch was a great opportunity to say a formal goodbye to the people who have been such an enormous and meaningful part of my volunteer work experience here.  I have learned so much from these incredible individuals.  I have learned about teaching and education, but also work environment and community. The importance of coffee hour and a good staff room vibe. I have learned SO much about Palestine and the lived experience of being Palestinian. I have learned about responsibility, humility and generosity. 

Thank you for supporting me throughout this academic year and making it possible for me to have this awesome learning experience. I am ever grateful!

Where'd the water go?

Quite suddenly it is late June and I find that I have not blogged in far too long! I apologize friends, I have been very busy. Of course, that is no excuse since we are all always busy. I have approximately a month before I leave this country to fly to the US (inshallah), so I will try to keep you more updated on my summer adventures and this transitional phase.

In this post I want to tell you about a bizarre and uncomfortable incident that happened at my school. On the morning of the second to last day of school, I was getting ready to leave when I received a call from our host family. They informed me that the house was running very, very low on water and that we did not know when we would get more so we needed to be quite conservative in our water use. They suggest that we all take really short showers and avoid doing laundry until we knew more about the situation. I was a bit surprised that we did not know when we would get more water and I really did not understand the situation, but I wrote a note for my housemate and left for school.

An hour into school, one of the teachers came out of the bathroom and said that there was no water left. The administrative assistant responded that we had not received water from Israel for three days. In fact, she said that all of Ramallah had not received water from Israel for three days. I was shocked. What did she mean we had not received water from Israel for three days? How could they just not give us water? Who is not giving us water? Why? When will they give us water again? What would we do without water until that time?

The practical issues of not having water were quite severe. There are about 450 students and 50 teachers and staff at my school. When they say there is no water, they mean literally: No. Water.  As in, cannot even flush the toilets. Take a moment to imagine a school of 500 people, ages 4 through 60-ish with no flushing toilets for EIGHT HOURS. IN JUNE. Woof.

The students and teachers were surprisingly un-emotional about the lack of water. We got out hand sanitizer and everyone tried to avoid needing to use the bathroom. We went without our normal glasses of tea and everyone was annoyed but no one seemed surprised by the events, except me.

After school the house seemed to still have water but I wondered how long it would last... That evening I went to choir practice only to discover that the facility where we rehearse was out of water too. Once again, no one seemed particularly surprised by the lack of water. We did the best we could.

The saddest part of the entire incident is that no one was surprised. Being suddenly and mysteriously out of water is apparently a normal part of life in the West Bank and everyone just dealt with it.

Alhamdilileh, water came back the next day. As far as I could tell the water reappeared as mysteriously and unexpectedly as it had disappeared. I still do not know what to make of it. Who exactly in Israel did not give the water they were supposed to? How widespread was the absence of water? Why did it happen? Why was nobody surprised or talking about it? Why was it not covered by news sources?

Perhaps the most important thing to take from this is that the politics of water are brutal in this place. Access to water in a desert is literally a matter of life and death. And on a lesser note, being unable to flush the toilet is really annoying.

The incident served as an important reminder about the necessity to always be careful with water. It is such a precious resource and we must conserve it, even when we think that we do not live under scarcity.

Rupper pand

Right now, it is final exam time at the School of Hope, so I have been doing a lot of work to prepare exams. It is somewhat stressful work since the exams are so important and carry a lot of weight in the students' grades. Plus EVERYONE at the school is stressed out during exam period.

Today, I was alone in the office for a while, working on preparing next Monday's exams. A younger student, probably second grade, who I haven't met before came in and asked me for something in Arabic. Over the course of the year between working in a school every day and taking Arabic lessons, I have gotten pretty good at the standard school words in Arabic. If he had asked for a "mastera" (ruler), "alam aloah" (dry-erase marker) or "mahai" (eraser), we would have been set. Unfortunately, he was asking for something which hadn't yet come up in my vocabulary lessons. I tried to get around it by asking who it was for but it turned out to be one of the religion teachers, and that didn't clarify anything. I asked why she needed it and he pointed to his head, which only made it more mysterious. I asked if she was cold or had a headache. He said no and no.  Baffling.

We stared at each other for a few minutes, neither of us sure what to do about our predicament. Finally, he gave me the "wait one moment" hand signal (put your first two fingers together with your thumb to make a very soft fist and gently bob it up and down about three times) and ran off.

I found out afterwards that he ran down the hall and found the first teacher he could, the school administrative assistant, and asked her what the word he needed was in English. She told him and he ran back down the hallway to the office repeating the word over and over to himself.

Returning to my perspective, the boy ran back into the room, slightly out of breath and says, "rupper pand!" Unfortunately, this did not immediately clarify for me what he needed. After a moments consideration, I figured it out! Arabic speakers who are new to English sometimes have trouble deciphering between b's and p's since there is no p in Arabic. What he wanted was a rubber band. It turns out that one of the students needed to put her hair up. Ah, of course. Now if he had just said the word "shar" (hair) earlier, I might have understood... but really, who knows?

In any case, it was a good, humbling reminder that there is always more to learn.

Congratulations to the Class of 2012!

The Scottish Choir

Two weekends ago, was full of fun events! On Thursday, my choir had a joint concert with a visiting choir from Scotland. The Scottish choir is a political choir, so they sing all songs about justice, freedom and peace. The whole idea is that they sing these songs during marches, parades and other demonstrations instead of just chanting. One man explained to me that when you walk down the street in a large crowd, chanting, passersby feel attacked and defensive. However, if you walk down the street in a large group of people singing and possibly dancing, passersby get excited and want to join in. At the very least, they are interested in what you're singing about. I love it! I reminded once again of, Emma Goldman's words, "If there won't be dancing at the revolution, I'm not coming". The Scottish therefore sang about 8 peace and freedom themed songs. Some were songs they sing regularly in marches in Scotland, others were specially designed for their visit to Israel/Palestine.

Zaridash Choir: I'm second from the left.

My choir sang 8 songs that we have been preparing for the past few months. The best hit was Loch Lomond, the classic Scottish song for which we have a beautiful arrangement. (I'm sure you know it, it goes, "ye'll take the high road and I'll take the low road and I'll get to Scotland afore you"... ring a bell?). There are actually two main roads in Bethlehem which run parallel to each other, one high and one low. From the beginning of the year, whenever our group has taken one road or the other we have sung this song so I was ecstatic to get to sing that song for real. 

I felt so blessed to have many of my friends attend my concert. Folks drove up from the south, took the bus from Jerusalem and even bought me a beautiful bouquet of yellow and purple roses! I was so honored that so many of my dear friends here could attend. Thank you all so much for coming! It meant so much to me to have such friendly, familiar faces in the crowd.

School of Hope Class of 2012

Saturday night was graduation for the School of Hope class of 2012. I had the pleasure of attending along with pastors and company from the English speaking congregation in Jerusalem. Students were very dressed up! The girls wore ball gowns and four inch heels beneath their robes. They even had full make-up and hair done. They were even more dressed up than they were for Prom.

The concert hall was packed and it was with great excitement that the students filed in to the hall. They did not use "pomp and circumstance" but instead chose their own, very dramatic, music. There were speeches given by administrators and teachers, songs from the choir, student speeches in Arabic, English and German, a jazz clarinet performance (one of the graduating seniors is an awesome clarinet musician!) and a dabke performance. Families cheered with enthusiasm as their student received his or her diploma and there was no hope of quieting the families down.

It was great to have the opportunity to be part of my students graduation and the community's celebration. I am honored to have been included in these communities here.

Dabke

Me in show choir circa 2007.

Last Saturday was the annual Al-Raja Dance Troupe performance. Al-Raja is the Dabke dance troupe from the Hope School, many of whom are my students. As I have mentioned before, dabke is the beautiful, traditional Palestinian dance. The students wore traditional Palestinian outfits and performed about a dozen different dances to a mix of traditional and more modern folk-style music. The show reminded me SO MUCH of my show choir days in high school. There was dancing, some singing, lots of cheering in the audience and everyone had a great time. I LOVE IT!

I'm so proud of my students for putting on such an amazing show. Dabke is an excellent part of Palestinian heritage and culture, and I'm happy to see it alive and well.

Please enjoy some photos from the show.

The opening of the dance performance.

Dabke

Spinning!

We used this in show choir too.

Check out the guy jumping on the far right. Awesome.

English Bowl Final

This past Saturday, we had the extremely exciting final English bowl event! Students from each of the four schools in the district gathered in Beit Sahour for the final rounds of competition. At this stage, the best two students in each grade in Spelling Bee and Mini-talk would compete against the winner's at each of the other schools.

Competition began with the Mini-Talk. The 24 students (2 students from each of the grades 8th, 9th, and 10th from each of the four schools) gathered in a room on the third floor to receive the rules and instructions. Then, beginning with the 8th graders, students were called one by one to pick two prompts out of a basket. After considering each prompt, the students picked their favorite and were sent into the writing room where they were allowed 15 minutes to write their two minute speech and then transfer notes onto note cards. They were only allowed the note cards while on stage. Needless to say, most of the students were quite nervous! Not only was this a very short amount of time in which to prepare a speech, they would also be performing the speech in front of four judges they had never met and many of their peers from all over the school district.

The audience.

I have to say, that I was so proud of them! I only got to hear two of my students' speeches since I was in the preparation room facilitating the activity, but I was very happy with them and how they did! It is not small task to give a presentation in front of a large audience like this one. One of the major goals of the English Bowl was to equip our students with the skills and tools necessary to give impromptu speeches in English, a very powerful skill today. I think that even just the training we did at the individual school level was worthwhile for these students. To see them actually give their speeches successfully made me very proud indeed!

The 10th grade spellers.

After lunch, it was time for the Spelling Bee. Starting with the 8th graders, two students from each school gathered on stage with the judges to do their best at spelling words. They first few rounds were with words from lists the students had been given beforehand. Later rounds featured words the students had not seen on lists before. I was so impressed with the students ability to memorize and spell many difficult words in English! Having grown up with SpellCheck, I have to admit that my spelling skills are not perfect and there were several words that I am not sure I could have spelled correctly.

The Spelling Bee turned out to be a very competitive game with emotions racing. Not having competed in a spelling bee before, I don't know how competitive they normally are, but I was impressed by how seriously the schools took this competition.

All in all it was a very busy and fun day. I am so proud of my students and all the students for everything they have learned and accomplished, both this year and in this area in particular!

Bedouin Homestay

I recently had the awesome opportunity to stay with a Bedouin family in the Negev Desert. On a Friday evening I was picked up in Jerusalem by a friend of the host and traveled down south to the small village where the host family lives.

My host father and his home.

Wanna buy a goat?

At every meal I was served huge delicious meals of traditional Palestinian dishes of rice, meat and vegetables. Perhaps you are wondering what a Bedouin home looks like today? Well wonder no more! Although the Bedouin used to be a predominantly mobile group of people, today many live in permanent homes. My host family's home was a simple but permanent home with a beautiful garden, water tanks and solar panels. They are very self-sufficient people.

My kind host took on me on a tour of the livestock market on Saturday morning. Each week the Bedouin in the region gather here to buy and sell livestock, primarily goats and sheep. It was lots of fun to see so many sheep and goats just hanging out in cars or tethered to posts in the ground.

My host also took me on a tour of his tiny village which is essentially a dozen or so homes and the mosque they built and maintain for themselves. I also got to see some of the larger, recognized villages nearby.

One of the women demonstrate how the rugs are made.

The beautiful selection of rugs, pillows and bags!

One highlight of the trip was when my host took me to a women's cooperative weaving organization called Lakiya Negev Weaving.










This small, fair trade organization is run entirely by women and is partnered with Sunbula, a fair trade organization in the area. They make beautiful rugs, pillowcases and bags by hand from real wool which they dye and treat themselves. Amazing!

Visiting the Bedouin family and learning about their lives was quite the meaningful experience! I recently wrote a newsletter to my supporters about this experience, if you would like to read my newsletter, let me know!

Spring Break in Haifa

I apologize for my recent absence from the blog-o-sphere. The internet has been out at my flat for about two weeks and I've been quite busy!

Welcome to Spring Break 2012!

After Orthodox Easter, my school had three days off so a fellow YAGM and I had a mini-vacation visiting Haifa, a beautiful city on the coast in Israel.




Although Haifa is not known as a tourist beach destination, it has lovely beaches and we enjoyed soaking up some sun on the gorgeous beach.

One of the trees in the Baha'i Gardens

The Baha'i Gardens over Haifa

Gorgeous!

It was a perfect day!

We also paid a visit to the amazing Baha'i Gardens. This area is one of the holiest sites in Baha'i and they have built the most beautiful gardens I have ever seen here.

















































 I am so grateful for a restful and renewing mini-spring break!

Sharon and my Mother-in-Law

I recently read two books by Suad Amiry, a current Palestinian writer who lives in and writes about Ramallah. I highly recommend Sharon and my Mother-in-Law as it is witty and poignant reflection on life in the West Bank during the second Intifada. There are several things I find captivating about these and other books about this place.

The first is that it is nice to have a Palestinian reinforce things that I have noticed or come to understand but have not yet been able to articulate. For example, in Sharon and my Mother-in-Law, Amiry shares a hilarious anecdote about her dog getting a Jerusalem passport. Amiry did not like the veterinarian she was going to in Ramallah so she took her dog to a suburb of Jerusalem where, along with vaccinations and a checkup, her dog received a Jerusalem passport.

Amiry jokes with the veterinarian about putting her own photo on her dog's passport but she isn't really joking, "Neither Nura (Amiry's dog) nor Dr. Tamar realized how damn serious I was about replacing Nura’s photograph with mine. I don’t think either of them knew how difficult or impossible it is for Palestinians to acquire a Jerusalem ID, let alone a Jerusalem passport. I was thinking of my Jerusalemite friend Nasmi Jubeh whose wife, Haifa, had spent sixteen years waiting for her Jerusalem ID. I’d definitely have to hide Nura’s passport from Samir Hulieleh, who after twenty-four years of marriage to Sawsan, a Jerusalemite, had not yet succeeded in getting a Jerusalem ID. I did not want to think about adorable little Yasmin, Sawsan’s and Samir’s only child. The Israelis would not give her a Jerusalem ID because her father had a Palestinian Ramallah ID, and the Palestinian Authority would not give her a Palestinian ID because her mother had an Israeli Jerusalem ID. If Jewish and Israeli traditions were respected, Yasmin should have two identity cards, one after her mother and one after her father. But she has none.” (106-107). 

Amiry brilliantly intertwines humor into what is actually a very serious and damaging problem in the West Bank. SO many people want or need Jerusalem ID's but are unable to get one, making it impossible for them to live with their relatives, visit Holy sites or get much needed medical attention in Jerusalem.With ease, Amiry slides from a hilarious anecdote about her dog getting a passport into some of the hardest realities of life under Occupation. 

One of the most striking things about watching movies or reading books about this place is recognizing places. For example, Amiry writes of Al-Manara square in Ramallah, which I pass on my way to and from the bus station. Even more than just recognizing places, it's challenging to read about these familiar places during an Intifada. Amiry writes about seemingly endless curfews in Ramallah during the Intifada. She describes mind-numbing boredom mixed with rushed three hour lifts of the curfew where everyone goes out and buys a ton of food. It's crazy to realize that these things took place only a decade ago. The jolt of recognizing a place in a book is made even more startling by reading about the trials of living in this place during that time. 

I am beginning to realize how valuable it is to be here. Living in this country makes everything about the conflict, the Occupation, the Wall, the Intifada's so much more real. Reading books or articles, watching movies, everything takes on a more personal meaning after having lived here for seven months. Israel/Palestine is no longer just a news hotspot or a popular article topic. It's a place where I have made friends, been invited into people's homes, worshiped in congregations, struggled to learn Arabic, done yoga and attended lectures, concerts and even a high school Prom. It's a place where I've lived normal life: I've done laundry, bought groceries and celebrated birthdays. In essence, it is a place I have grown to love and to feel at home. 

I am so grateful for the opportunity to make this place my home and to make everything I read and watch about it more meaningful. I hope that you have a chance to read books and watch documentaries about this place. There are some fantastic ones out there. Feel free to contact me about them and to discuss them with me afterward